If only people knew,

I live in a life where nothing makes sense. I just don't get the people around me. The closest, my dad. A couple of days ago, he threatened to leave my sisters and I, just like my mum did a couple of months ago. Don't you judge that I am devastated about it, I really don't. I prefer her absence around the house.

Anyway, along side him, my boyfriend, Stefan. Yeah, I broke up with Alex. About Stefan, he would not tell me about his private life, although I told him mine and it is clear that I want him to know that I care for him, that's why I asked him, but he insist on not telling me. It could not be that bad, but if it was, what's wrong by telling me that and spill the fucking beans?

I just do not get everything right now, my mind is getting hijacked by those crappy random stuff that happen in my life and kept inserting to my brains and unfortunately I can't dissolve.

Life kept on going and I am heading Jakarta, Indonesia tomorrow which I am really looking forward to. So I will be telling you guys about that later.

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Vegetarians

okay, someone has sent me a message through MySpace, about my vegetarian video. it almost sounded like the person was offended but she said she wasn't, but if she was not, why did she sent it, am i right? so anyway, im making this clear, she asked me to apologize, or was it something like it, but anyway, this is not an apologizing blog but im clearing to those who were offended and i really am sick about the whole people being offended crap.

obviously, in that video, i stated that the video was for e! entertainment channel. because i was so pissed, i guess im jotting this clear. they said that people should more prefer being vegetarians and so on. right now, i dont want to talk about it, only to clear things up to the people who take me seriously.

god, only if i could really tell you this, but i dont think i would be able to. but i am TRYTING to say that I wasnt trying to offend anyone fer that matter.

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I always loved..

being random! i mean, its like my middle name because if you know me, i am absurdly random because i kept thinking of stuff that i shouldnt be thinking. like, when im in class, learning about some subject, my head would be wandering off some place much better. like what would i do when i got home or something like that.

tomorrow's raya and i am up at 1 in the morning, bored. i actually cant sleep and thats why im posting this bs. i am utterly bored to death and sometimes i think blogging is mundane and uninteresting.

so anyway, im heading jakarta this monday and im all psyched! this is my first overseas vacasion in a year and some months. and im totally going to hit you guys with some pictures. although that is not a promise.

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Snails are hermaphrodites.

That was what I processed from making Science revisions after dinner. Funny though. Anyway, it has been ages since Ive been on this website since ive found out that blogging sucks and btw, im getting an iphone soon! wowieeee. thats just it, its 2 am and im bored to death.
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Alma tweet-ing at my face in class.

Okay, this is so stupid. I was in class, I can't remember what subject it was. Anyway, Alma is sitting in front of me in class and I was like laughing with Naimi at the back. Anyway, she was looking at me with that face and I was like 'what are you looking at?' and she's like making this innocent face and tweet-ed! She TWEET-ED at my face! What the hell was that?! I was laughing about it all day! Haha. Felt like ROFL the whole day. Haha! Oh btw, the subject was Geography.

I will ROFL and LMAO at the same time!

Okay, so this is what happened, we were having this beauty contest in school. And me and a couple of friends are suppose to manage the stage and the decorations and stuff. So, as usual, I will make a joke about everything and said to Naimi that what will happened if I join the beauty contest and emberassed myself by ROFL on the red carpet when it's my turn, that must be funny. Naimi was like 'let's make a video and you will ROFL and LMAO at the same time! That would be awesoooome!' and we laughed about it and cant believe ourselves.

How me and Naimi rocked it last Wednesday.

Well, nothing good happened but me and Naimi was some awesome DJs that day. Our school was having this Miss Personality Muslimah contest. It's like a beauty pageant. And I got picked to do the music section. But the teacher doesn't seem to like the songs I played, who cares about what the teachers think, eh? The students like it and that matters most anyway.