I am not afraid to say I love you,

This post I am about to type is going to be slightly vulnerable and sensitive. I dream about this person for like 2 weeks now and I don't know his name. Maybe I even had this dream about that anonymous person because of my break-up with Stefan, I just thought so, maybe because I still love him.

Yes, I broke-up with Stefan and I have absolutely no time to tell you guys this news. The break-up is probably my fault because he is someone I really care about and when he left, I just stood there, reminiscing but not doing anything to alter fate. I am a sucker for love and forgiveness. If I am hurt, I'll probably shut up about it.

My bestfriend said maybe I missed him and I want him back. I don't really know, sometimes I do and sometimes I don't. I bought a CD of his favourite band, Good Charlotte, just to feel that he's around. Fortunately, the CD cost me RM10 because it was an old CD. Lucky me, a-ha. I heard the same song over and over again on my iPod.

Oh, not to mention, he called me yesterday and we talked a lot, but he was the one doing the talking, I was just there, being heartless as I am. Anyway, I was relieved that he doesn't have anyone else because I want him all to myself. Yes, love is greedy. Well, at least I have something to blame to.

By his voice, he sounded concern. We talked for an hour and I kept wishing he would not hang up but I was the one ended up asleep when he's still there. I still laughed about it. I wish he would still drop-by to see if I was okay. I just miss him, that's all.

Stefan, if you read this, I just want you to know that you mean a lot to me.

xx